Surgery went well, except I woke up pissed at the nurse and swearing I was still in SD and kept telling her to stop telling me I was in AZ.

Even though I am sore, I am feeling better. I think that my body is happy they finally got all the crap out of me that killed Danika and almost killed me. You know, the body is amazing and will fight off stuff for months but sometimes it will just give up, I'm so glad that mine was strong enough to go through all of this.

I have a follow up in two weeks and hopefully by this time it will be the end of this whole drama. I miss Danika, but I can't move on with crap that keeps happening. But I no longer cry all day and no longer burst into tears when I see a baby or a pregnant woman, so I think that's an improvement, even if just a small one.

I watched Garden State for the first time this week or late last week and I'm so in love. That movie is so fabulous on so many levels, I wish I could explain them all, but I can't. So many things in the movie are huge to me on a a level that I can't explain to you guys and may never even explain to the person that makes me feel safe.

I've been getting impatient with my life and some of the people in it, and sometimes I sit back and realise that I expect too much from people. Kinda makes me sad to say that, but sometimes I expect someone to be something huge to me and all they really are is someone who is passing through my life, and I will find the reasons why eventually. There are other people that I know for a fact are supposed to be there, and at times we have to fight to make sure we make it and we know that we will if we get the chance, we just have to make sure that we wait it out and that eventually time will give us what we've been waiting for. There are people I refuse to let go, people that I love and make me feel safe, I just have to wait. I've never been good at waiting. People are in for a reason, a season or a lifetime, just have to learn to hold onto the ones that are meant to be there for a lifetime.

But I think I need to quit typing for a while, the computers edge is hitting right where I had an IV or where they took blood or something and it's killing me.

Just letting you guys know I made it through surgery and am feeling better about life.

Plus I'm heading to Christy's soon and I love Christy, so life is good.